I suppose to have a limited diet of oatmeal+fruits+blue agave (natural sweetener who looks like maple syrup but with low sugar content). I don’t think I have any problem so far, except that I feel like catching flu soon after excessive eating and not enough rest. And yes, the excessive eating. I think the Korean BBQ on yesterday’s dinner was actually enough to fill me for 2 days. Let’s see if I can survive the next days
Weekend is a precious thing in the hardworking sunny island. Coming from someone who has been working for past few weekends, here’s the list of what I tried to fit in despite the working schedule.
2 weeks ago: Getaway in KL, taking leave on Friday. Salmon omelette breakie at The Coffe Bean, long winding bus journey with The Hitchhiker’s Guide To The Galaxy on my hand, Auntie Anne’s pretzel, got a Geox on 50% off, thosai prata and nasi lemak at mamak stalls, meeting with nice people. Goin around Petaling Street and Central Market, found a nice tea house that let me tried all their teas and I actually bought some. Movies with friends. Another bus ride home in nicey Aeroline, watched The Help and some Pixar short animations on journey.
last week: homemade footbath (will def do this again), visit to Sg Art Museum (SAM), dinner at Food for Thought, hang out at the Fullhouse ($5 dessert wine on house pour is irresistible)
today: Skype-ing with buddy, buy songs at mp3shake.com (nice finding), set up yoga mat to have 15 mins stretch and in the end got my sweat out by moving to Mas Que Nada (Sergio Mendes ft. Black Eyed Peas version), gonna have some work done in office, (possibly) nail art and looking for gift, dinner with friends cum celebrating b’day
Will find more interesting things to do or just to chill in upcoming weeks :)
I tried to remember what I did last year on the mark of 13, but I can’t seem to remember. It should be a pretty low time as much as I can reckon and I wouldn’t know how to survive in my struggle doubting God’s plan.
I won’t say I’m perfect now, but I’m just grateful that I have the following years to learn and change. It’s been an emotional journey lately but I am lucky to have the people around me and even the situation that I ride along.
I am learning to be secured and believe that God loves me so much as his daughter, that I can do great things in him and even have faith that I’m good enough for heaven and all it’s splendor. The little steps can be extended to a brisk walk. I’m only determined that whatever my struggle is, it will just lead me closer to God.
The name is Leah, the meaning is Weary. Born with tender eyes was not a bad thing, until her sister was born and blossoming with the radiance of a flower. The least thing she wanted was to compete with her sister for the love of 1 man. Who knows why the scheming dad Laban forced her to replace her sister on the wedding night, but so was her fate. She was despised as soon as morning came and Jacob realized she wasn’t the love he worked 7 years for.
The Bible says in Genesis 29:30 that “Jacob loved Rachel more than Leah.” The words “more than” are not in the original Hebrew text. The interpreters of the Old Testament added those words to the text much later. What the Bible indicates here is that Jacob did not love Leah at all. Jacob had eyes only for Rachel and he didn’t care about Leah. Jacob’s heart was for the super-model, not the homely girl who needed glasses. (quoted from: http://columns.crossmap.com/article/a-tale-of-two-sisters-rachel-and-leah/steven-wickstrom/301.htm)
When the LORD saw that Leah was not loved, he enabled her to conceive, but Rachel remained childless. Leah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Reuben,for she said, “It is because the LORD has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now.”
She conceived again, and when she gave birth to a son she said, “Because the LORD heard that I am not loved, he gave me this one too.” So she named him Simeon.Again she conceived, and when she gave birth to a son she said, “Now at last my husband will become attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.” So he was named Levi.She conceived again, and when she gave birth to a son she said, “This time I will praise the LORD.” So she named him Judah.Then she stopped having children.(Gen 29:31-35)
The Scriptures says so much more than I can write. The longing in sadness to be loved was real for her. But in the midst of that, she would always praise the Lord. She knew she’s not loved by Jacob but was cared by God.
She was guilty in competing with Rachel to give her maidservant to Jacob when Rachel gave hers, and she sounded a bit bitter when Rachel wanted Reuben’s mandrake in Gen 30, but she didn’t lie about her feelings and she didn’t act shrewdly like her sister when she wanted certain things, eg. steal the household god and lied about it or able to trade anything for a mandrake so she could conceive. Leah put her requests and struggles in God alone, and for that God always listened to her. God didn’t intervene with Jacob’s heart though in that period he appeared to Jacob a few times, cause it’s just not the way God works.
Her unloved life was blessed in the long run, though little would she know about that when she’s still alive. I don’t even know whether Jacob loved her more after Rachel died, which in a way was God’s justice to bless her with longer life, but when Jacob was dying he considered her as his wife and paid respect by burying her together with his parents. The fact that Rachel wasn’t buried there since she passed away on the journey back to Ephrath didn’t seem to be Jacob’s will coz if he could embalmed the body he would had done so, but somehow God made that happened. Rachel had Jacob when she lived but Leah stayed with him permanently after he died.
She gave birth to Levi who would be the ancestor of all priests, and also great men like Moses.
She gave birth to Judah, who would always known to be strong like a lion, and from whom Jesus lineage came.
The unloved woman had always been in God’s eyes and she was made as an example for all the women in the world that feel the same way.
I’ve been listening to a lot of new music lately, it might just be a sort of getaway for me. I always run to music anyway. So here’s the list, just in case anyone out there need a tune to run to (not in order of favoritism):
Angus & Julia Stone, esp Love Will Take You, You’re The One That I Want (cover of Grease soundtrack)
The Civil Wars: Poison and Wine
Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars: Safe and Sound (I can repeat this song at least 3 times)
Florence and the Machine: Cosmic Love, The Dog Days Are Over
Coldplay, all the songs I have in my ipod
Bon Iver: Blindsided
Banana song by the Minions (gotta have this on the list right..)
All the poetries on Speak, Celebrity tumblr blog, esp all Rumi’s poems, ones read by Helena Bonham Carter, Glenn Close, Morgan Freeman. Do follow the blog.
Queen: Somebody to Love
The Beatles: Here Comes the Sun
Lizz Wright: Thank You
Christian songs by Casting Crowns, Shawn MacDonald, Starfield
I shall stop before this list gets longer, but they are like life-savers during the busy and low days. Yeah to music (and now the song Thank You For The Music from ABBA is playing in my head)
Why do you keep looking out the window? Is it something left behind or never found? Hm, do I even want to know? Now, if you knew what I was thinking, I wonder if it’d even draw a tear. Oh, there’s just one way to find out. Go.
The Civil Wars | Go
Have been listening to their songs to calm my nerve from post holiday syndrome + heavy work load
Taking one day of leave, looking forward for time to just chill, eat, think, write, shoot pics and chat with old friends and meeting new ones. Long winding bus journey will be a good time to rest. I make sure I ride in comfy bus, got my traveling socks and sweater with me.
If you can’t live on a jetplane, living on a bus ride can still be a good alternative (though after I count it, the cost of riding bus to kl is more exp than my flight back home).
Just realize I bought an imitation item from Queensway after … something like more than a year! Oh my, why am I so naive? Will never buy anything from there again before I familiarize myself with the signs of original and counterfeit goods.
Will you envy the birds because you can’t fly, and so refuse to walk?
In the same way, don’t be obsessed with what you can’t do or do not as good as others.
Find the unique walk of yours and learn to run (or dance or skate or even just a stretch).