Isaiah 49:14-16 (NIV)
But Zion said, “The Lord has forsaken me, the Lord has forgotten me.”
“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.
Once I walked around my neighborhood and I saw a bunny hopping in a small vacant land filled with wild plants (in Indonesia, mind you, not Singapore). My 1st thought was, “Whose bunny is that? Does it escape from the owner?” It’s a common sight to see a stray cat or dog, but not a stray bunny, coz I kinda doubt about their survival ability in pretty modern neighborhood.
What if I see it in a different way, that he is God’s bunny? God takes care of him the same way God takes care all his birds, cats, dogs and yes, mankind.
I am a weak creature with many flaws walking in this world and I may not feel protected at times. God offers me a status as one of his. No matter what I have done, where I came from, how my family or society treated me. He would always remember me and take me under his care.
Do I walk proudly as God’s daughter and showing every signs of it to the world? So when people see me they will wonder who’s daughter that is, and I can smile and say: “I am God’s daughter. “
“One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you, O God, are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving. Surely you will reward each person according to what he has done.”—David - Psalm 62:11-12 (NIV)
takes the best out of your life. The negativity replaces joy and gratefulness. The new lights can’t fill your heart coz you never take those resentment out.
New short term goal, to live without resentment and fear
Browsing through office phone list today to settle urgent thing with some staffs I’m not familiar with. I notice a - (blank) sign in phone extension column next to a certain name. I just realize something that is so obvious. Yes, the employee is deaf and mute, why he needs a phone..
He’s been working in the company for over 10 years, am very sure of that coz I have the employee list for some reason. Heard that he’s in his 40s but he really doesn’t look like one. He’s a drafter with all smile, he communicates with all of us using sign language. Not a common sign language though, coz we don’t understand. We will just play charade with him and he replies the same way. Heard that there was an ex-colleague who learnt sign language and able to communicate with him back then. He writes all he wants to say and that’s how we explain to him his assignments.
It’s just impressive how he can survive in school, finish education and being so positive about life. He would be the 1st one to praise the pictures I took on company trips or once he shared a book he read about how to be happy in life. He’s very detail in his work and he does his job well, I will say even better than those with 5 senses, coz they just take instructions for granted.
In the middle of self pity wave that hits me on and off, I just need to remember about people who fight with a lot of smile on their face.
‘Moon’s Mood’ by Marcos Ariel [My Only Passion, 1999]
The acclaimed Brazilian keyboardist/composer gets kudos first and foremost for coming up with one of the best modern arrangements of “Girl From Ipanema” in many a year. His twist on the Jobim evergreen begins with a the seductive Portuguese whisper of Daniella Carlo over a snazzy retro-soul meets modern hip-hop groove. As two tracks of her voice (one high register, one low) duel it out for control, Ariel sets the foundation with a percussive, nearly arpeggio take on the famed melody. Elsewhere, he switches off between intimate, moonlit variety solo piano ballads that border on new age (“Moon’s Mood”) and exciting, soundscape and percussion heavy productions which speak to Ariel’s Brazilian heritage. Sometimes, he plays these breezy and cool, as on “My Only Passion,” which finds the pianist and electric guitarist (and fellow countryman) Ricardo Silveira easing along a loping rhythm. Much more fun are the album’s two best original cuts, “Rio Walk” (which finds Ariel’s high register melody dancing upon Silveira’s low tones as percussionists Meia Noite and Marcelo Costa “hiccup” in the background) and the jamming, densely rhythmic closer “Bahia Suite.” On that song, Ariel races with abandon over the percussion bed, winding in and around Frank Gambale’s almost avante garde style guitar lines. Triumphant any way you look at it.
that tells me that I am meant for something bigger. I can’t be contented with daily work and having money to spend/shop. Isn’t life supposed to be meaningful?
The next question is, what is my passion and how I’m gonna pursue it? How to direct my life towards the right track?
I need time to ponder and plan. Clock is ticking and I don’t live the same day twice.
I just wanna post a love letter
To God, for being there forever and always and teaching me about the glory of life and eternity
To myself, to pat myself in the back for the journey I’ve been thru that is not easy sometimes
To my friends, that have been great influence for me and always be there when I am in need
To the world, for letting me experience culture, food, scenery and friendship
You are created to captivate the whole world.
Let the depth of your eyes shine the kindness and wisdom of the Maker
Let your sharp ears listen to the groan of the mistreated and the cry of the weak
Let your gentle hands work for the good of many and touch the broken hearted
Let your swift feet initiate friendship and kneel down for prayer
Most of all, let your beautiful lips say no disgrace and only praise
You are captivating in God’s eyes
1st day at hometown went good. Managed to avoid unwanted conversation, listening to people and feel listened, catching up with family and even got a new gadget.
One thing I learn from my cousin’s family, they stick together through troubles, and it seems that they just have a pile every quarter of year or so. They are sure that somehow there will be a way out. They keep bad news internal to not trouble their extended family, though I feel they should share more to let people understand and appreciate them. It’s just good to know people are fighting for a better place, that life is troublesome and it’s normal to feel so. The gadget is a good decision to communicate with those people who fight. I need that to continue my own fight
A part of being an adult is to decide where your life is going. Along with that you need to choose among the ocean of offers companies put up with sugar coating. I’ve been avoiding them when I can but now situation leads me there, to choose the best from those sugar coated candy that may have some bombs inside.
I just feel like sleeping and doing nothing now, and maybe tomorrow, and the day after.