Throughout the years, I have a long list for this, and it seems that life has its own way to teach me. I have a feeling that this topic will have never ending sequels as time goes on. Not in particular order of importance, I’ll just note down what some that comes to my mind.
To accept, let go and move on
Things happened, unwanted. It is frustrating when there’s nothing can be done to fix it ‘coz it’s just out of control. I think acceptance is a beginning of the solution. And yes, moving on is important.
To take time for yourself, yet not feeling guilty
Busy schedule should not stop me from taking time to rest, think and spend time with friends. It is important to be recharged regularly, then piling up things to just explode one day.
To enjoy being alone and embrace crowd
I’m not comfortable being alone in the crowd, but I learn to enjoy things by myself now.
In other moment, there are times when I just wanna be alone, yet I need to give my best to others. That is when self denial comes to aid. Throughout good and bad choices, I learn that a godly mindset will get me thru the day without regretting what I do.
Try new things in life, it’s never too late
I’m happy that now I can be more open towards unfamiliar things, and I am grateful for that. I used to be very strict and reluctant of changes, but thanks to the people around me, I can be more free spirited. Last year I managed to travel to new places, try new sports such as yoga, wakeboarding and ski, and to react differently in unwanted situations. Now I even try blogging :)
To forgive, though it’s hard to forget
Bad memories stick like they’re super glued and people do hurt one another, intentionally or not. Still, forgiveness is a choice. I learn to put myself in others’ shoes and I may do the same mistake if I’m in their position or coming from their background. It’s still not easy, but I am forgiven by God and others, too. I can just say, I’m still learning..
To persevere during hard times and be grateful for good times
My favorite verse is Isaiah 63:9, that tells me that God feels me. “In all their distress he too was distressed, and the angel of his presence saved them. In his love and mercy he redeemed them; he lifted them up and carried them all the days of old.”
As for good times, I tend to build a comfort zone and forget to be grateful for the little things. It’s good to remind myself of where I came from and how I am brought up by grace.
You are special, and so do others
God creates each woman with unique characters, handmade and supervised. When I see a disabled woman or a woman that is not as pretty as others, I think they are still lucky ‘coz their loved ones look at their heart instead of their appearance. Each woman deserves to be loved and to love others.
It’s another day of work, sitting, collecting money. Oh, I had a lot of money, you see, I was one of those chosen by the Roman government to collect tax. The best part was that I could collect any amount I want from anyone. I was powerful and I knew important people. My family enjoyed good life in the midst of troubled time. I did that job for my family, anyway. It’s better than being hungry and begging on the street. I knew people were scared of me and acted nice in front of me, so I would not collect more from them. I was lonely, but there’s a price for everything in this world. I was in too deep in the dirty business and it’s so hard to climb out of the pit.
But during those days, my routine life was changed, something just bothered my heart. I just thought my life was boring. I could have anything but yet nothing satisfied me. Then one Sabbath, I went to synagogue as usual, and there was this man who stood up and read from the scroll of the prophet Isaiah. Jesus, was His blessed name. Something was just different about him. His teaching was powerful and what he said just made sense. Is it only me, or he was really looking at me when he’s teaching. He couldn’t know who I was or what I did, or did he?
I saw him again a few times around town with the large crowd following Him. It became my delight to listen to Him after a long day of boring and tiring work. I enjoyed His sermon, ‘coz He filled my heart with excitement and He accepted everyone, including people like me. He’s different from those self righteous Pharisees, they just loved to bring people down and cursed everyone like me. I loved the way He answered my questions about life. And oh, how amazing were those healings he performed, I saw one myself. That was the most amazing scene I witnessed in my whole life. He always forgave people’s sins before He healed them, and I think if He could heal the lame, that means He could forgive sins as well. I wondered if He would heal my sinful heart. I was just hesitating to tell Him I need forgiveness as well.
The more I thought about my life, it was as meaningless as ever. I could just live without all the money. As what Jesus said, why I need to worry about my life. God who takes care of the birds and the flowers will take care of me. I am more precious in God’s eyes.
A noise awoke me from my thoughts, a large crowd was marching towards my booth. It’s Jesus! Seems like He just healed a paralytic, the man was jumping and praising God and so did everyone. He’s getting nearer, and stop right in front of me. Then He looked deep into my eyes and said: “Follow me.” For a second I was stunned, did He really called me, personally? He even called me when the crowd were still around him, it was really an honor. I couldn’t be happier than that moment, I even left my booth unguarded. I announced party for everyone in my house. I just wanted to share my joy. The feeling of being loved and appreciated by someone I admired.
The rest of my journey.. I can just said that my life was totally changed, and I never regret the decision I took that day. You’ve been with the apostle Paul all along, and he must have told you everything Jesus did, hasn’t he? I really appreciate you for writing all those chronicles, it would help all the Christians all around the world. All my best to you, Luke.
This will be my 1st post for this dear blog. I started to have a thought to write a blog because I always have thoughts flashing all over my head, and forget it the next day. So let it be frozen in the pages of this online blog, and be treasured. I’m not the best writer and I’m pretty straightforward, both in thought and writing, but I’ll just take this as a chance to grow and hopefully to bring others higher.